Dec. 19, 2008


'Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark."
-George Lles

Well, yesterday, emotionally I was spent. I think partially because I was battling with a bad stomach flu. And the thought of anything overwhelming was too much for me.

Today, I feel 100 times better. My head is screwed on tight.
I feel confident in my Fathers plan.
And I feel like I can rest in His perfect will!

Thanks for all your prayers &
for sticking beside me through my meltdowns!!
Love you!

*Picture taken from Facebook Graffiti Gallery

Dec. 17, 2008

Loss of Vision?

Proverbs 29:18
Where there is no vision, the people are unrestrained'
New American Standard

'Without prophetic vision people run wild'
God's Word Translation

'Where there is no vision, the people perish'
King James

'Without a Vision is a people made naked'
Young Literals Translation

'Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint'
World English Bible

If people can't see what God is doing,
they stumble all over themselves
The Message

Lately, I find myself, grappling with the vision of God. I want to know Him. Really know Him. When I know my friends, I know what they think about everything.
We can finish each others sentences. I want to know God that way.
There are a many areas that are a battle for me. One is my infertility.
There is the side of me that says,
'Your will, Oh God! I want nothing more than your perfect will.'
Yet, the other side says,
'Just please don't let it include lifetime barreness!
Because I don't think I am strong enough for that road!'

vi⋅sion: the act or power of anticipating that which will or may come to be

I want the power to anticipate what will be!
I need to believe that I am not forgotten.
The journey of infertility is the hardest I've ever walked. Maybe, I'm callow to assume that.
Sometimes, its really hard to hear parents complain about how annoying their children are
(I'm not thinking specifics, friends!), cry out about the pain of wanting to have another child,
while my broken heart would give anything in the world to have that annoying child or have that womb that had carried a child before.

Please, don't be hurt by my honesty! I love you all & I really do rejoice when you conceive. I love all your children. Just sometimes, my heart hurts more than usual!

*Both pictures are from the Facebook Graffiti Gallery

Dec. 16, 2008

Oh, How He Loves Us!!

This song is climbing the charts of my all time favorites! And she is so incredible!!!

He is jealous for me
Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me.
Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.

Cause He loves us,

Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves

So we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way

That he loves us,
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves

Well, I thought about You the day Stephen died and You met me between my breaking
I know that I still love You, God, despite the agony
...they want to tell me You're cruel
But if Stephen could sing, he'd say it's not true, cause...

Cause He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves

Dec. 15, 2008

Study of Christmas-Part 1

*picture by MyShoesAreOnFire

I have been studying the symbols of Christmas in the Nativity, in traditions, origins, etc...
So I thought I would share some with you.

Gold, Frankincense & Myrrh
brought by the Magi who came to see Jesus
Matthew 2:11

Gold- represents royalty. It symbolizes God as King.
Frankincense- was a resin used the anointing oil of priests. It symbolizes God as Priest
Myrrh- was used in embalming bodies. It symbolizes that Christ came to die.

What amazing gifts! They show Him as King, as Priest & as Saviour!!
What a story!