Jan. 1, 2009




'And these are but the outer fringe of his works;
how faint the whisper we hear of him!'
Job 26:14

May you know His unfailing, unwavering love &
His awesome power to change the ordinary into the extraordinary!!!!
We love you!
Mark & Ruth

Dec. 30, 2008


So, a few of you have said you'd like the non condensed version of my battle lately. So here it is.
I lack discipline. In almost every area. I struggle with committing to something and following it though.
If its a struggle or takes determination, I fizzle out. I despise this about myself. This is the thing that was brought to me & I responded badly. I want to change this about myself. In weight loss, I want to have the guts to stick it out to see results. In my job, I want to finish what I start. I really don't know why I'm like this. Maybe its partial insecurity, but I refuse to lay blame anymore. This is something that cannot have a place in my life. I am tired of giving up, selling short & never crossing the finish line. I want results. I want accomplishment. I want success.
It is an unphill battle. But, I am getting up for the 1,000th time, brushing off the dirt and starting over. I can't change the past, but I can keep moving forward. Today is great for new beginnings. And so is tomorrow. He is faithful enough to pick me up, shake off the dust, speak life to me & push me on.

'Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.'- Hebrews 12:1

'Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training...Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize. '- 1 Corinthians 9:25-28

p.s. As for the gym, what an experience. I was on the elliptical beside a 20 lb woman who had 1 drop of sweat the whole time. What came over me, I don't know, but I decided that I should be going her speed, so I did...for 10 minutes. When I got off, the room started to spin & my legs gave out from under me. A little embarassing. Why the heck was I trying to be like her? The common problem in women today. Arg! Anyways, I was better after a few minutes, and went on to use the other equipment, which I did pretty good on, thanks to my sister getting in my face (she is a lot like Jillian, actually). We then had a sauna...so NICE!!
It was a good first time, i think. Time will tell. The crappy thing is having to be cautious of my back. My doctor wasn't thrilled about me going to a gym. He wanted me to go swimming instead. So after January, I'm going to re-assess the situation. What I might do is switch every month. One month at the pool, one month at the gym. We'll see. I'm also doing the DDR 3 times a week & Turbo Jam 3 times a week. Pray for me!!! :)

Dec. 28, 2008

Ok, friends, this might be a bit of a longer post since there is lots to say. I hope you can stay with me through the whole thing.

First, I had a good christmas. It was relaxing & fun, though I felt heavy hearted (hard to explain and which I don't feel like talking about here) but overall it was good. I always love being with my family. It is a cozy, safe & great place to be. Mark & I hosted Christmas Eve at our house. I made Spinach & Artichoke Dip, Apricot Almond Brie Dip, Sugar Bacon Smokies, Shrimp Dip, Meat & Cheese Platter, Cookies & More. It was yummers! Then we spent the night at my parents. We spent the morning with my parents, then Mark drove to Rupert with his dad to pick up his brother & his wife from the ferry. Then we all had christmas dinner back at his dads! We played Rock Band & had lots of fun. Boxing Day, we took Marks step brother with us & met up with Chris & Christy at Walmart for VERY early sale shopping! Soooo fun!!!!

Second, someone very close brought a stern discipline into my life which was very hard to take, but needed in a big way. I have a tendency to be very insecure when someone corrects me, because I feel like I'm worthless. Its my issue & I am learning to walk in God in this area. Anyways, It is an area that I want to change. It will hinder areas of my life if I let it. And I don't want it to. So that is something I am dealing with right now.

Third, I received a gift certificate for a gym for one month. I am really excited about this, for I am at a very big fork in the road when it comes to my health. I am excited to get control of this thing that has long been out of control. I am believing that His mercies are new EVERY morning! And I want to walk in the freedom that He has given me. So January begins a very hard and exciting adventure.

Ok, so that wasn't as long as I thought it would be. I would have expanded on subjects, but I'm not sure really how many really read this & if you'd even want to hear it, so this is the condensed version.

Love you all!