Jul. 23, 2009

This picture, in giant form, hangs above the fireplace in our home. I walk by it, on average, 25 times a day, but rarely do I read it. I see it, admire it, comment to myself how cool it is. But rarely do I really think about what it says. I originally bought it to go in Marks office, and it was there for a while, but when I needed to convert his office into a kids space, the picture came into the living room.
And so this morning, I walked by it twice and the third time stopped to really look. While I was there, I had a little conversation with God that went something like this:

Me: No such thing as small change thats for sure. What do you think my capacity is?
Him: I know the plans I have for you...
Me: Ya, but I'm not as strong as you think. I'm barely holding up under the weight.
Him: My yoke is easy and my burden is light. Learn from me.
Me: I am not wise enough, strong enough or brave enough.
Him: Thats exactly what I want.
Me: How could I be what you want?
Him: In your weakness, my strength is made perfect
Me: But there are so many things that I don't understand!
Him: Bring them to me!
Me: Why can't I have a baby? Why me!? Why do I have to be barren?
Him: So that the work of God may be displayed in your life. Think of Sarah, Rachel, Hannah, Elizabeth...
Me: You've chosen the wrong girl!
Him: I never choose the wrong girl!
Me: Ya, but...

This is often the conversation I have with God. I am always calling Him on His Word, challenging Him, questioning Him, which just reveals my insecurity. I am worried that I'll be passed over, forgotten, I'll get old and I'll be barren still. And then I hear those scriptures over and over...'and the Lord opened her womb....and Sarah laughed....he settles the barren woman as a happy mother of children....' He knows the plans, which means I don't. Thats what faith is. Trusting in what you can't see! I And so, when I see 'There is no such thing as small change, I'm reminded again and again, that there is SO MUCH MORE that he has in store for me. And the road is not easy, but He knows the plans...

Jul. 21, 2009

Challenge Picture!

This is my picture I drew in Paint. The First is how I see myself now. The Second is how I see myself in 5 yrs. The first picture will be reincarnated in real form soon, as I will be a bridesmaid wearing a blue dress. Love the dress, just not the body! Sigh!

Jul. 20, 2009


This is for EVERYONE! A fun little exercise! Get a piece of paper and a pencil (or use 'paint' on your computer if you don't have a scanner).
Now, draw 2 pictures or if you feel you can't, then find a picture that represents you. The first how you see yourself now...and the second how you see yourself in 5 yrs. You can make it as elaborate as you want or make stick men...the choice is yours! Its a good way to see what you are seeing!
Post it on your blogs and share with us!
My next post will be my pictures. :)