Dec 17, 2009

Its so bizarre. This year I'm having to force myself into the Christmas Spirit. And by the Christmas Spirit, I mean the frantic, shopping/wrapping/decorating/baking madness that usually comes naturally and promptly on Nov.1st. I still love this time of year. I love the focus of family, the emphasis on blessing others & the celebration of our Saviour. It is not because I am sad, depressed or oozing 29 yr. old angst, which I'm not (i know, shocker!! ). I just feel on the outside looking in this year. I know, so bizarre, right? I am excited to give the gifts, excited to be with my family and have fun, but something seems a bit off. Any thoughts on this weird phenomenon?

7 comments:

Unknown said...

I totally feel the same way this year! And we have done more "Christmassy" things this year as a family than ever! I don't know?

Tanya said...

Maybe its because of your course and all the business that created for you and being away from home...along with housesitting for your parents so long...I dunno!

I feel the same, but its been because of this Dang Bio course...and with J being home for so long as well...its just different and my time has not been spent doing the things that I normally do. We don't have any decorations up or anything yet! We're going to hunt for our tree on saturday...should be fun! I'll feel more "christmassy" after I'm done my final tomorrow!

I hope you "feel" the mood soon!

starla said...

Lots of my friends over here haven't even put out their tree yet so your not alone. are you all staying overnight at your parents this year?

Shan said...

Your gran just passed away, my dear. And there's something about 2009 that just shrieks "GET ME OVER WITH AND TRY AGAIN IN 2010."

Come to think of it, that might be my motto. "Try again in twenny-ten."

And the Linus fan in me wants to say......



Lights please?

Carin said...

funny you should say that... I was just thinking that too... and I LOVE Christmas... just feels different this year... can't really figure out why... sigh

Anita said...

This has been a weird year in general.
I'm just accepting that I'm not super into it this year. I'm doing the stuff for the kids and enjoying it, but I'm kind of just floating on through. Keeping it simple and not worrying too much.

I agree with Shan. Grieving takes time and maybe this year will just be a low key one.
NEXT year we're going to do a freaking amazing Christmas thingy at the farm, so start getting all pumped up now.

Lollie said...

I have had years like that, on and off. I would guess for you this year if may be because someone very special is missing this year. And well they will be missing until you reunite in Heaven. When my Dad died it was the same. And well there becomes a new normal.
Lately, well the past few Christmas' I've been craving something totally different. I can't quite put my finger on it, but each year I tweek a little here and there, and I'm hopeful that one year I'll get just what I'm looking for:) Don't get me wrong I love visiting and eating and spending all that time hanging out. I love presents too, but I hate shopping(weird I know). This year one thing that made me the happiest was I made presents for my niece and nephews. I love that. Maybe I'll do that for my own kids next year too. Maybe a new rule like, no buying only homemade stuff! hmmmm.